If you've ever walked through the loss of an important person in your life, then you know that we don't handle grief well as a society. It makes us uncomfortable. We often try to rush people through stages of grief, as if they are a linear process we can just move through to get past the grief.
We expect people to grieve the loss of someone. And for the firsts without that person to bring sadness or anger. We may not be completely comfortable with it, but we expect it.
But, in the last six months, I've noticed that we don't really talk much about the other losses we face. And we don't expect them to be long journeys with grief. Nor do we realize that sometimes all we see is the big loss & we don't realize the many smaller losses that are rolled up in it.
I think the best way for me to explain what I mean is going to be to share my story of the last six months.
Six months ago, I unexpectedly lost what I thought was my dream job at the time. In the days & weeks that followed people generally expected me to not be okay. But, as the months went on & I started a new job, I noticed that many people seemed to assume I would be okay now. And were generally surprised when I told them otherwise.
I have more days when I'm okay than days where I'm not now. I feel like I can genuinely enjoy things, smile, & laugh again. But, I also still have many days - sometimes one, sometimes multiple days in a row - where I'm just not okay. That's the reality of grief.
I've also discovered it's not just the loss of my job I'm grieving. It's a long list of things tied to it that I'm grieving.
I lost may of the people I had spent my days with for the better part of 17 years.
I lost the purpose that came with the work that I did.
I lost the familiarity of what I did everyday.
I lost the sense of how my work really changed the lives of people.
I lost the security of knowing what I did.
I lost the confidence that I could do my job.
I lost the vision of what my future would look like that I had.
I lost my trust in those I work for & with.
I lost many more things than I can name right now.
And most losses, are actually a whole lot of "smaller" things rolled up into the big loss that's obvious.
But, these aren't the losses we like to acknowledge or talk about. Because they're the harder ones to walk through.
If the only loss I was dealing with was the loss of my job, then finding a new job would been all I needed to move on. It's all those little things that mean I'm still grieving.
In his book "Grieve, Breathe, Receive" Steve Carter writes:
"You don't journey through grief, you journey with grief."
Rather than looking for people to be done with grief, we need to learn how to be okay with the uncomfortableness of grief.
How do we do that?
The most helpful thing we can do, is to let people be not okay for as long as they need. And that means we need to be willing to sit with people - even when they're maybe not the most fun to be with.
And we need to remember that grief isn't linear. The commonly referred to stages of grief are helpful in describing the various ways people will feel as they journey with grief, but we can't expect people to move through them in a linear fashion or to just have those feelings come up once.